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//Saturday, August 28, 2010 3:59 PM

these few days i keep having weird dreams.
i knw mimpi cuma mainan tdo. but it feels so right.
oh man. bt i knw its impossible between us.
i keep imagining us together. how will it be eh? hmm.
*knocks head*
impossible lah!

//Tuesday, August 24, 2010 4:00 PM

going thru a breakup is not a wonderful feeling.
although how much u hate ur ex, the feeling of hurt will always be there.
& as for me i need my close ones to give me some support.
to me lah cause aku pelik nyer org.
but somehow, i feel that im not need in their lives.
like seriously.
i may look happy outside. bt inside u wunt knw.
im trying my best to be strong.
i guess i need to rely on myself & be independent.
so sha, no more relying on ppl okay?
dun say sorry to me if u intend to do it over and over again.
bebual mmg senang.

//Sunday, August 22, 2010 1:07 PM

okay. sementare ader mood baek aku update.
nnt lau tkder mood habuk pn tkder. nnt jadik mcm si Meera nyer blog. ahahah.
mls nk update trus private kn blog. siao nyer pompan!
im super bored sehh. thank god bbf is online & can entertain me.
planning mode on. jiwang mode off.
meera ngah ngorok agaknyer. org msg tk reply.
go throw ur hp dlm toilet bowl okay ling??!
going iftar at grandma hse today & im not looking forward for it.
the reason being, there's a kitten @ grandma hse.
tau2 jekk lah aku ni segan ngn kucing. grr.
only that part im not looking forward.
speaking of buka-ing & fd, idk why this few days my appetite go haywire.
eat a lil bit kenyang already. hahah.
mama pelik. tuu lah, mkn dier bising. tk mkn dier risau! ahhah.
i cant even finish my fav mc spicy ydae. sedih tau!
tml please dun come. im still tired. oh man.
after yesterday, im sure it will be easier to let you go.
since u wanted this way. im tired entertaining all ur nonsense.
penat tau. im too tired to think abt all this stuffs.
&& im not wasting any tears for u. cause u're not worth to cry over (:
insyallah everything will be fine without u by my side (:

our fav song for the moment. mine & meera.
ni lah mama. ari2 bukak lagu ni. ampai dier post pat fb. ampai teraddicted.
but si Maher Zain ni handsomeee lahh sehh!!!
okay. sidetracked lagi! grrr.
im off. nk mandi. haahh. busuk nyer olang!

//Friday, August 20, 2010 9:26 PM

Not my usual self.

Dear brain, sorry for overloading you with thoughts of him.
Dear tummy, sorry for all the butterflies.
Dear pillow, sorry for all the tears.
Dear heart, sorry for all the damage.

Im sorry.

//Thursday, August 19, 2010 12:23 AM

CHANGE OF BLOGSKIN/HAPPY BIRTHDAY BBF

my all time fav song. & me likee both of the singers too.
oh, meera fav too (:
finally i've change my blogskins. i'll settle with this for awhile.
so bbf bdae was a blast.
we watched Boeing Boeing. bbf dpt complementary tickets. wuhuuu!
i love it. sis was jealous cause i got to see adrian pang live (:
after the show we chilled arnd bugis while waiting for buka time.
bought 10 balloons for him. multi colours.
the bday boy bringing the balloons.

had our break-fast over at fika together with sis & boyf.
it was our first time there. the atmosphere was nice. i like.
but the food was okay okay lah. not really to our liking.
then headed to haji lane for shisha session. bbf like high already.
then gy karaoke @ grandlink! me no like the place.
hahaha. ni smuer tk plan. hahah.
bbf & i gone already. sis & boyf karaoke 2 org.
cabbed home & part with a big huggg!!
reached granny home arnd 0130.
i hope u had as much fun as i had bbf.
we shud do this more. december? our anniversary.ehehe.
been working almost everyday @ office.
tired i am. but the thought of money really give me motivation.
nxt wk will be one more hetic week for me ):
& im missing bbf already. meet up soon okay baby.
will update tml.
good night. toodles.

//Sunday, August 8, 2010 3:13 AM

love this song & adam lambert. idc whether he's a gay or not. i still love him (:

good morning. im still awake. time check, its 3am.
going JB later, celebrating lil bro belated birthday with family (:
alot has been happening this week.
re-organize my room & paint it. not fully complete.
still need a few more touchups. going shopping to ikea soon.
planning for bbf bday hasnt been going smooth.
maybe canceling it since the other two not cooperating.
i cant do this alone.
im not free myself. i still have to werk &plan out all this alone.
u guys demand this and that. but not willing to fork out the money?
meera has been behaving like chipsmore.
to me, she's like changing into someone which i hate.
haish. i dun wish to elaborate more. its ur life,
i dun have to right to question it.
i feel better after letting it out this way. i dun wish to hurt ur feelings.
im scared that my anger will take over me if i let things out to u guys.
its better this way.
but bbf on the other side has been really sweet (:
i mish you too lah bitch. hehehe.
idk what to give u seh b. hahah!
well, like raihan said, everything happen for a reason.
on the other hand. he has been asking me for a second chance.
pleading me & so.
a part of me says, let him be.
but another part of thinks, i should give him another chance & work things out.
i seriously dunnoe. well, i'll just go with the flow.
i aint wasting my tears.

//Wednesday, August 4, 2010 12:01 AM

i guess august will always be a bad mnth for me. sigh.
since last yr.
every time im planning for Nas's bdae celebration,
some stupid stuffs will corrupt my mind.
oh why!
i dunwan to go thru all these once again.
once, twice is enough.
im trying my best to be strong & stop my tears frm falling.
to whoever u're, idk whats ur motive. but u win.
cause u manage to bring back my tears and bring me down.
Thanks hor.