Shasha

2012-02-05T20:19:00.002+08:00

Last Saturday was our last date before his enlisment, which is in 2 days. 7th february.

He's gonna be botak, sadly couldnt send him due to work. But ill see you in 2 weeks plus aite.

So we went to Coldstone (the service was not that good) Oh well. Then we head to MBS.

SKYPARKKKK. Awesomeeeee. A good progress for me yg takot height nak mampos!!

I'll miss you Bestfriend. Takecare of yourself aite. Im a text/phonecall away (:

On the other hand. I finally let out everything that i bottled up.

Yes, i regret my decision. Cause instead of feeling relieved, i still feel angry. Infact angrier.

Cause you dont care at all. Action speak louder than words my dear friend.

No point saying sorry but you still dont care.

Urghhh! And idk why i still care -.-

2012-01-23T02:33:00.001+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year.
Fall asleep while watching arsenal vs man u match. But now, mater tkleh Tutup -.-
&& guess who's beside me right now? Meera the midget! Shes sleeping over my place. Weewohoooo!!! Lepas Ni nk wrestling ngn dier!
Okay lah. Mcm tkde makne gitu update. Selamat Mlm :*

2012-01-08T16:11:00.001+08:00

So I'm bored right now. Keep refreshing fb and twitter since just now. Haiyah.
For the first time, I'm looking forward for CNY. Excitedddd. Cause.....we're gg USS!! We (me,Bestfriend,Meera,peanut,sis and fiancé, lil bro mayb)!! Then after that I'm looking forward to the 27th, date with the Bestfriend. I shall not reveal it here. Incase he still read my blog. Better be safe than sorry!
But I already have something in mind. Insyallah everything will go smoothly (:
Happy Sunday you alls. Hehe.
Xoxo :*

First...

2012-01-08T02:33:00.001+08:00

Testing. Hahaah. My first time blogging from my iPhone. Woohoo!!!

11 years ago....

2011-12-25T03:43:00.003+08:00

Happy 11th Bestfriend<3

No matter how far we're apart from each other, busy with our own commitment..

I'll always be here when you need me.

A decade has gone. We grew up together.

More years to come?

Grow old together?? Hahahaha.

Idc if people think im bragging. Im proud to have you as my bestfriend.

11 years and still strong...

Long Post.....

2011-12-25T02:52:00.006+08:00

I've been MIA-ing since i start working. Was adapting to working life environment. The first month was difficult. Cause i have to adapt to my work timing. And i kept complaining that i've no life sal pegi balik keje jek. Now back to normal. Penat tu penat. But da name keje kn. So far, im loving my job, colleagues and workplace. Hope it will stay this way (:

14.11.11-16.11.11 KL Trip.

My virgin trip without my parents. Went with sis and farah. 3days 2night is not enough. Karaoke, movie, baskins robbins, shoppin! I want more!! Sorry, i dont have the photos with me. Just realised i have upload the pics to my fb! *tepuk dahi* Im looking forward for another getaway next year.

03.12.11-08.12.11 Terengganu Trip.

Another getaway. This time its with the family, ebuk's family and abg izal's family. 2 nights @ KL was awesome. Went to PutraJaya mosque and i forget the other mosque name. The scenery was breathtaking. Then drive to terengganu. For me, terengganu is more for the "makcik2" place. Cause most all the shops there sells sutera, kain or batik. Idk. Had so much fun. Picnic, bowling, gossip session. I suke sekali!

12.12.11 Double Date.

When out with meera, peanut, me & bestfriend. Orignal plan was, ice cream date. But it tersidetrack ke karaoke. Sorry bestfriend. Ice cream date soon okay (: And im loving polaroid and of course my phone. More double date together?? Plsssss.

23.12.11 Movie Date with Bestfriend

After 6 months or so, we finally went out for a movie date. This time, we watched Ombak Rindu @ Rex Cinema. The sad part was, the tix were selling out fast and not much seats were available. So nak tknk, have to take seperate seats, one row apart from each other. Awkward. People looking at us one kind. But... the movie was awesome. Cried like nobody business. Nothing can describe the movie. I wanna watch it again! Thanks for the day Bestfriend. Getaway soon :*

*most of the pictures was taken using my iphone (:

2011-10-20T22:00:00.004+08:00

Alhamdulilah, finally i got myself a job (:

Thanks to sis for the recommendation. I owe you.

Went for the interview earlier today. && tml will be my first day of work.

Praying that it will go smoothly.

Its been awhile since i last werk.

So, tml gonna werk @ION Orchard. The best thing? Can go break with sis. YEAH!

Dont wish to reveal the company im werking at. Maluuuuu~

2011-10-13T22:44:00.002+08:00

...

I MISS YOU LAAAAAA!!! ALOTTTTTT!

I DONT CARE, GAMBAR LAWA KE BURUK!

I CANT WAIT FOR YOUR EXAMS TO BE OVER!

BUT FOR NOW KENA SABAR KN DIRI!!

CEPAT LAH END OF NOVEMBER!

2011-10-13T22:31:00.003+08:00

Sorry lah ye tk update. Bukan bz.

But moodless for the past weeks. Been avoiding twitter, fb, msn, text msges & phonecalls.

But now, im back. Feel much better (:

So, three days ago was dad 48th bday,

We celebrate it @ Carousel. First time oi! Jadik abit jakun.

Had countless amount of fresh salmon. Heaven oi!

& we surprised dad with a cupcake (complimentary frm carousel) and the staff sang birthday song for him. Member sukeeee!!

Shopped abit. Bought myself a MAC lipstick & urban decay primer potion.

And oh! My iphone died on me. Sedih gile!

But dont feel like bringing to repair shop.

Haish, iphone iphone kenape lah kau mati biler si steve jobs pun mati.

I syg u sehh ):

2011-10-05T14:23:00.000+08:00

24.09.11 was sis engagement day.

Alhamdulilah, all went well.

Had so much fun snapping here and there.

Org lain yg tunang, org yg lain yg excited oi!!

Hahahahaah.

Ni lah dayang2 dier yg kecoh. Hahahah.

Ngok abg yg akai aju pink, sachok semcm kn3? LOL!

Thankyou so much for coming down. Kiter tunggu next year okay?

Insyallah (:

2011-09-21T22:13:00.002+08:00

After 2 weeks of not meeting, we finally met.

It was a last min plan cause both of us craving for Wendy's.

So had our lunch, well late lunch i must say cause someone was late *roll eyes*

Hahahah. As i was saying, we had our late lunch @ Wendy's, jurong point outlet.

Then ader org tu shopping. He bought a light pink smartshirt, which make him look like abg2.

I sukeee~

Actually it took us forever to get to IMM.

Went to DAISO to buy something. End up beli bende lagi. Biase, sape tk kenal sha & nas?

Didnt manage to capture any pics cause both sibuk gossip. Hahaha.

Meeting him again for the Saturday event. Mesti sachok nyer tu abg *minah alert*

&& I NEED A PICNIC SESSION SOON!!! HAHAAHAH. #random

Okay lah, nak sleep, ngantok *yawn*

Nightssss you alls (: xoxo.

2011-09-18T23:47:00.003+08:00

(not today pic. ni gmbr pat indon. mls sungguh aku nk upload gmbr.)

Im so tiredddddd.

Went to Wak Niah's open hse @ Yishun with mum and dad & meera.

Force meera to follow me cause tkder fwen. Kekekeke.

We reached there a few mins before magrib. & terus kena serbu ngn Farah.

My lil princess ((:

Had dinner. I swear, wak niah's sambal grg is the best! 1 serving tk cukup! Hahaha.

Then back to layan-ing the small princess and naufal.

Aku ingat si farah, alia & fatin aje nk duduk ngn aku.

Naufal pun join. Biler suruh kiss nk pulak.

Hehehehe. They are annoying, irritating, cute.

Tuu yg buat aku sygggg ngn dorg. Nnt biler dorg tkd sunyi pulak.

Ni pun da rindu. Tkpe, saturday can meet them & peluk sepuas2 nyer.

Yg aku tk happy kenape si farah leh melekat ngn cik meera eh?

NOT HAPPY AT ALL!! HAHAHAHA.

Cabbed home with meera arnd 8.45pm.

Wish i could stay longer.

2011-09-18T22:13:00.003+08:00

17/09/11

Raye with the ex colleagues. Its been more than a year since we last met.

But giler-ness tetap maintain!

So this year we decided to rent a car. Kecoh i tell you. Kul 10am da kuar umah.

Takot sesat nyer psl. But mmg sesat pun.

All thanks to the stupid GPS thingy or whatever that thing is called.

Tapi yg sesat2 tu lah yg best sal kecoh.

So we only managed to cover all of our houses only. Still i had fun.

Thanks you guys for making this outing a success.

We shall plan an outing soon. After MIN ABES EXAM. Hahahaha.

Thanks to Saiful for picking and sending each one of us home.

& thanks to mar, min & izzah also for the kecohness.

Missing you guys already.

2011-08-25T11:09:00.003+08:00

Good morning!!

Well, da tgh hari pun. its almost 12.

Just woke up actually. Semlm tido lmbt.

Movie marathon sorg2.

First cite.

Watch with sis, lil bro and abg shah.

The storyline abit draggy. But overall worth it.

Sencond movie:
Nur Kasih. Berkali2 aku ngok, berkali2 aku nangis -___-

Cite best. Only graphic dier ader sikit *TOOT*

Then cite:
Idk brape kali da ngok cite ni. But farid kamil nyer psl. Hehehe.

But cite ni not bad jgk. Touching.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST.

Sekali lagi.

My fav. Watched it cause ader Sam, Mia & Lisa.

&& also i love the storyline.

Sedihhhhh. Nangis tk agak2.
So i think i finish watching all this arnd 3 in the morning kot.

& now ngantok sendiri *yawn*

Nk mandi jap lagi. Need to run some errands.

Haiyahh. Sumpah tkder life!

2011-08-24T23:43:00.002+08:00

7 more days to raye.

Apart of me is really looking forward to tuesday. Cause i miss all my sedares.

Esp my anak sedares. Irritating, but they nvr fail to make my day.

Speaking of sedares, today was my first time buka-ing w makcu's family. I mean this year.

Just us. But the kecohness, ya ampun i tell u.

Stayed there till 9 plus. Managed to put Ain to sleep (not really, she wake up & salam me)

Although she's 10, i always enjoy putting her to sleep. No matter how annoying she gets.

And just now, when i was abt to leave her room, she salam me, hugged me & kissed me like she dont want to let me go home. Even sis got kissed/hugged by her. Idk why i abit emo when she did that. I cant imagine what will happen when makcu tell her the truth.

But i hope i'll be the one hugging her. I'll always remind myself to be there for her (':

.........

Idk why august is my suay month. Not suay actually. Err, bad month for me?

Make sense tk?.....

Cause august is when i usually get heartache, heartbreaks and whatnot.

Its the truth! 1stly, 11th-our mnthsary. 2nd 14august- Hailmy's birthday.

The whole day emo and cranky to the max.

Tell me how can i not be emo?

All the memories will rewind like tape. Back to the past.

When we started out as strangers, to close friends, then lovers & now back to strangers :/

Then, come to friendship.

Haishhh. Ikotkn hati tknk type out. Cause i knw it will offend he/she.

But i need to let things out & this is my blog right? My say?

So recently A has been avoiding me gitu. Backing out at the very last minute.

Of course im angry. But i didnt voice out.

Takot nnt tegur, org kater kiter kokong dier & penting kn diri sendiri.

But kuar iftar ngn kwn smue boleh pulak kn. Ape lah naseb mcm kentang kn.

I keep telling myself not to care too much. I cant. In the end, aku yg saket hati.

Saper2 ader tip how not to care? Tolong share ngn saye ye (:

Lovelife? Dont bother. Nothing interesting at all. Zero. Kosong. Nada.

2011-08-17T14:07:00.001+08:00

& so, its already the 3 week of fasting.

Selamat Berpuasa semuer (:

Hopefully its not to late to wish you people.

All has been happening this year. Last week was BFF's 20th Birthday.

We celebrated it in advance. Break-fast @ Qiji. MBS then ION & lastly home.

For the very first time i baked oreo cheesecake. Awesome.

HIS TREASURE CHEST.

Each object inside the box is a representation of him and our friendship for the past 10years.

Found this video in my photobucket. Awww. His 18th Bday. Now i feel so old.

ONCE AGAIN, HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY NASRI.

ILOVEYOU LAH BFF. SEMOGA DI PANJANG KN UMUR DAN MURAH REZEKI YER.

I STILL OWE YOU OUR MOVIE DATE.

&& speaking of date, we're playing to go USS after raye. I CANT WAITTT!

Hopefully the rest can join (:

& there's an event coming up on 24th sept. SO EXCITED!!

okay, cannot excited yet. raye havent come. so kiter excited utk raye dulu.

YEAHH RAYEEE! -____-

2011-08-16T20:01:00.000+08:00

After a few months of not blogging, im back. Well for now.

Abit awkward. But i miss blogging (:

Should i create a new blog? Since this blog is 3 years old?

DAY 2: UR CRUSH

2011-05-10T20:21:00.004+08:00

NAHH, MY CRUSHH. HEHEHEEH.

I KNW, I VERY MIANG.

cannot get enuf of him.

b, i rindu u. HAHHAHA.

2011-04-22T12:06:00.002+08:00

Happy Good Friday (:

Its a long weekend. But it makes no different to me actually. Hahaha.

Have a great weekend (:

Day 1-Your Bestfriend.

2011-04-06T14:01:00.003+08:00

Muhd Nasri bin Selamat ♥ ♥

2011-04-06T13:33:00.002+08:00

How time flies. Its already April. The last update was January. Hahaha.

Im not busy with anything. But was to lazy to update. Hehehe.

Frm now on, i'll try to update regularly. I try okay.

So, i saw this thingy at sis blog. Mcm gerek jek!

Day 1-Your Bestfriend

Day 2-Your Crush

Day 3- Your Parents

Day 4- Your Siblings (or closest relatives)

Day 5- Your Dreams

Day 6- A Stranger

Day 7 - Your ex bf/gf/love/crush

Day 8- Your favourite internet friend

Day 9- Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10- Someone you dont talk as much as you'd like to

Day 11- A deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12- The person you hate most/cause you a lot of pain

Day 13- Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14- Someone you've drifted away frm

Day 15- The person you miss the most

Day 16- Someone that's not in you state/country

Day 17- Someone frm your childhood

Day 18- The person u wish you could be

Day 19- Someone that pesters your mind-good or bad

Day 20- The one that broke you heart the hardest

Day 21- Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22- Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23- The last person you kissed

Day 24- The person that gave you your favourite memory

Day 25- The person you knw that is going through the worst of times

Day 26- The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27- The friendlist person you knew for only one day

Day 28- Someone that changed your life

Day 29- The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid

Day 30- Your reflection in the mirror

Begining today

06/04/11

2011-01-01T22:03:00.003+08:00

So far my new year has been good to me.
But im kinda of worried here, he hasnt txt me or call me since this morning.
Gasak kau lah nakk. Hidup kau.
Anyway, meetup with bestfriend earlier. As usual, nothing goes wrong when we meet (:
Had movie marathon @ home with mum & dad.
Shrek & CutiCuti Cinta. Meet up soon okay bestfriend. Im glad u decide to open up to me.
Mum, lil bro & dad watching Epic Movie.
monday pls come fast can? we bringing out princess alia & alisha. cant wait!!

da addicted to Indon songs alek. ahahah.
Goodnyte everyone.

2011-01-01T13:10:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE.
GOODBYE 2010 HELLO 2011!
HAVE A GREAT YEAR (:

2010-12-22T10:33:00.002+08:00

omg, i look so tan siaa.

Few days back, or was it a wk back? I luper lah. Hehehe.
Had picnic session with bff & arinah. The actual plan was to go with eja & noraa.
But last min dorg tkleh. Nk buat aper kn.
So it rain after awhile. I still had fun playing in the rain.
End up, aku saket skg -_-
2010 is going to an end.
3 more days to Christmas && 9 more days to NewYear. Wth.
So fast pehh nk 2011. I blm puas enjoy jadik 19.
Nnt nxt year da turn 20 sehh!!!
Resolutions eh? Hmmm.
Okay lah, nk g mandi. I knw i bucuk. Shhhh!

2010-12-10T23:05:00.005+08:00

Exactly a week ago, we (me, mum ,dad & lil bro) went to KL for lil bro soccer tournament.
Last year they ( the U-16) didnt qualify to the quater-finals which was disappointing.
But this year, they got thru quater-finals, semi-finals & finals.
&& they emerge as CHAMPIONS!
They moment the wistle blow at the last minute of the finals, tears started rolling in everyone eyes, especially Coach Din & U-16 boys.
They go thru alot, frm losing amirul, their first choice goalkeeper.
He was given the red card. Unfair tau!
&& Ahmad getting injured. Its was an emotional match afterall.
IM PROUD OF YOU GUYS!!
the U-16boys & Coach Din. Global Majulahh!!

So now, back to square 1. Starting all over again.
Antar resume. Call saner sini. Gy interview.
Aper lagi, carik keje lah. Full time, i promise.

2010-10-31T03:45:00.002+08:00

I cant sleep ):
Alot of things running thru my mind right now.
They decided to run instead of walking -___-
Nothing is going my way. Haishhh. Idk when will all this end.
I feel that everyone is turning their back to me & getting on my nerves.
Why am i feeling all these negative feelings??!
Friends? I no longer believe in that particular word.
Cause someone make me realised that she/he only need me when they need something frm me.
How sad.
But im not saying all friends are like that.
I guess 2010 is really not my year. Im looking forward for 2011.
Turning 20.
I need a full time job, full time bf (:

2010-10-14T23:14:00.000+08:00

Hello again.
Im doing fine as always. Been meeting my bbygirls since last week.
& last friday was my virgin trip to Spore Flyer cause abah dpt tix free for 3days straight.
& hell i was scared! Gayat beb! But alhamdulilah, i survived the 30min ride with mum, dad, meera & arinah.
YEAH! Aku tau aku lame!
then we had lunch cum dinner @ POPPEYE. dad & mum went off.
gossip here & there. jln2 carik present. & then home sweet home.
the nxt day arinah came over & since mum was over @ grandparents, we decided to cook.
For the 1st time in my life, aku masak sup ayam!
raser pn blh tahan! thanks arinah for helping me.
(:
The nxt day, which is Sunday, 101010 was daddy's 47thBirthday.
So, we took the flyers again. But this time was at night. & sunpah lagi seram.
idk why. can feel the capsule thingy moves, stops & stuffs.
then we headed to AlAzhar for lunch/dinner/super.
cut cake & sapedek!
On tuesday, we meet up & decided to cook Nasi Lemak & a dessert.
me & arinah went shopping at NTUC. makcik2 smuer ngok kn kiter sal kiter lahh pompan2 paling kecoh dlm tuu NTUC. headed home ASAP & we start cooking.
as usual meera was the black babi. hehehe. by the time she reached my place, we already finish cooking. last2 dier kena cuci pinggan. amek kau! ahahha.
Overall not too bad for 1st timers. cumer the rice tk cukup power!

this is what we had for dessert.
heaven btol! steam abes. ehehhee.
actually we planned to buy waffles and mkn with ice cream. abeh tkder, pound cake pn jadik.
&& right now, we're planning to baking cupcake tml. i mean later.
& have a mini picnic @ sentosa on sat. mcm arinah kater, dier nk enjoy puas2 sblm dier bukak sch. amek kau! hehehe.
soey lah eng gue sungguh rabak for this post. gue letih.
mls sihh mauu correct kn grammar. lol!

2010-10-04T15:29:00.000+08:00

holaa. im sooo bored right now.
currently @ NUH accompanying grandpa. he just finish his lunch (:
yeah, im using sis lappy. im all alone right now.
grandpa was admitted last monday. exactly 1 week ago. bcause of stroke.
the first few days he wasnt his usual self. but now alhamdulilah. he's getting better.
cant wait for him to come home.
atleast i got someone to accompany me when im using the computer (:
last sat was syaf's open hse. i had fun snapping pictures with my happy people.
we shud do an outing soon. like what syaf & fir suggested.
we'll make it happen. soonnn~

2010-10-02T18:34:00.002+08:00

IM IN THE MOOD THE TO KICK PPL!! ESPECIALLY THE ONE INFRONT OF ME RIGHT NOW. FUCKER!! GO AWAY LAHH!!!

2010-10-01T17:35:00.001+08:00

TAEMIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nk dier blh?

OMG HOT!!!!!

i promise i setia ngn dier. LOL!~

okay, aku mepek! BYE!!

2010-09-28T21:27:00.001+08:00

Usher - DJ Got Us Fallin' In Love ft. Pitbull
Usher (yeah man)
So we back in the club
Get that bodies rockin from side to side (side to side)
Thank God the week is done
I feel like a zombie gone back to life (back to life)
Hands up, and suddenly we all got our hands up
No control of my body
Ain’t I seen you before?
I think I remember those eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes
Cause baby tonight, the DJ got us falling in love again
Yeah, baby tonight, the DJ got us falling in love again
So dance, dance, like it’s the last, last night of your life, life
Gonna get you right
Cause baby tonight, the DJ got us falling in love again
Keep downing drinks like this
Not tomorrow that just right now, now, now, now, now, now
Gonna set the roof on fire
Gonna burn this mother fucker down, down, down, down, down, down
Hands up, when the music drops
We both put our hands up
Put your hands on my body
Swear I seen you before
I think I remember those eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes
Cause baby tonight, the DJ got us falling in love again
Yeah, baby tonight, the DJ got us falling in love again
So dance, dance, like it’s the last, last night of your life, life
Gonna get you right
Cause baby tonight, the DJ got us falling in love again

2010-09-23T12:46:00.001+08:00

hello (:
Selamat Hari Raya. Hahahah.
its nearly the 3rd wk of raya already and here i am wishing everyone Selamat Hari Raya? HAHAHA.
im too lazy to blog thats why. furthermore no one read my blog what.
i cant wait for the weekend. balik kampong. yeah2.
okay, let see what i've done within this 2wks. hmm.
shopped @ dorothy perkins for the 1st time. IM PROUD OF MYSELF (:
partyypartyypartyy.
jalan rayer with ex-cckps. unexpectedly almost 30 ppl turn up. amazing kn??
lagi aper eh.
ouh yahh, kak shikin came over for rayer the other day with Muhd Al Fauzan (:
super cute i tell u. geram jekk!!
meet up with syaf & fir ydae. seems that we've nvr ending topics to talk abt.
its better this way i think.
open hse on the 3rd. sadly i can only invite some of my fwens. tkleh ramai2.
soey to those yg tk di jemput ):
on the other hand, im looking forward for syaf open hse.
&& i really hope nasri, meera & fir can make it to syaf open hse & also to my open hse (:
speaking of nasri, im missing him. been awhile since we meet. he's bz with exams.
nvrm, december kiter enjoy abis abisan okay nyah?! LOL.

lagu tkleh angkts. meleleh airmata beb.
cerita Lagenda Budak Setan lagi sedih!!
haishh.

2010-09-05T23:08:00.002+08:00

finally did my hair yesterday with sis. si nick minaj wanna be (:
all i did was rebond my hair & trim it. nothing new. hehehe.
i'll make sure that i take care of my hair. i promise.
now my head gatal2 & my hair bau busuk! nk cuci rmbt!!!!!!!!!!!!!

monday faster come okay??
&& its less than a wk to rayer! OMG! Cepat pehh. tk raser mcm 1 bulan gituu.
haishh. tkder mood nk rayer uh. the excitment is not there.
i havent been to geylang at all sehh. tkder org nk ajak.
yelah, kiter ni kan saper. dah tk penting lagi. aku tau aku emo! hahaha.

my latest obsession. AARON FRESHH!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh man.
He's like super hot, super cute. Fuyooh. Im melting!!
syg uh dier maseh muda. he's only 17. tkper lah. i still tetap suker u. hehehe.

hah! amek kau! laguuu tkleh angkt!
lagi2 part dier joget..............dier uwt aku nk party.
hahaha.
okay, baek aku tutup lappy ni sblm aku mepek!
byeee.

2010-09-02T23:48:00.000+08:00

Idk how shud i put all these into words.
But all i really need to let things out. Boleh jadi gile tau lau simpan lamer2.
Haishh. Susah2..
Where shud i start??
I've known u for so long. & when things go wrong, i'll knw.
Like now. U treat me differently sehh. & bkn aku jek yg perasan.
U no longer create conversation with me. U talk lesser nowadays.
U dun laugh at my jokes anymore. Although its really funny.
U no longer pay attention to me. Its not that i want to point out ur mistakes or watever.
I just want u to realise that i care for u & i dont like the new u. Seriously.
I've lost a "friend" which only need me when she's desperate for something. Hate her!
I dunwan to end up losing u. But i've no right to force u anything.

2010-08-28T15:59:00.001+08:00

these few days i keep having weird dreams.
i knw mimpi cuma mainan tdo. but it feels so right.
oh man. bt i knw its impossible between us.
i keep imagining us together. how will it be eh? hmm.
*knocks head*
impossible lah!

2010-08-24T16:00:00.002+08:00

going thru a breakup is not a wonderful feeling.
although how much u hate ur ex, the feeling of hurt will always be there.
& as for me i need my close ones to give me some support.
to me lah cause aku pelik nyer org.
but somehow, i feel that im not need in their lives.
like seriously.
i may look happy outside. bt inside u wunt knw.
im trying my best to be strong.
i guess i need to rely on myself & be independent.
so sha, no more relying on ppl okay?
dun say sorry to me if u intend to do it over and over again.
bebual mmg senang.

2010-08-22T13:07:00.006+08:00

okay. sementare ader mood baek aku update.
nnt lau tkder mood habuk pn tkder. nnt jadik mcm si Meera nyer blog. ahahah.
mls nk update trus private kn blog. siao nyer pompan!
im super bored sehh. thank god bbf is online & can entertain me.
planning mode on. jiwang mode off.
meera ngah ngorok agaknyer. org msg tk reply.
go throw ur hp dlm toilet bowl okay ling??!
going iftar at grandma hse today & im not looking forward for it.
the reason being, there's a kitten @ grandma hse.
tau2 jekk lah aku ni segan ngn kucing. grr.
only that part im not looking forward.
speaking of buka-ing & fd, idk why this few days my appetite go haywire.
eat a lil bit kenyang already. hahah.
mama pelik. tuu lah, mkn dier bising. tk mkn dier risau! ahhah.
i cant even finish my fav mc spicy ydae. sedih tau!
tml please dun come. im still tired. oh man.
after yesterday, im sure it will be easier to let you go.
since u wanted this way. im tired entertaining all ur nonsense.
penat tau. im too tired to think abt all this stuffs.
&& im not wasting any tears for u. cause u're not worth to cry over (:
insyallah everything will be fine without u by my side (:

our fav song for the moment. mine & meera.
ni lah mama. ari2 bukak lagu ni. ampai dier post pat fb. ampai teraddicted.
but si Maher Zain ni handsomeee lahh sehh!!!
okay. sidetracked lagi! grrr.
im off. nk mandi. haahh. busuk nyer olang!

2010-08-20T21:26:00.000+08:00

Not my usual self.

Dear brain, sorry for overloading you with thoughts of him.
Dear tummy, sorry for all the butterflies.
Dear pillow, sorry for all the tears.
Dear heart, sorry for all the damage.

Im sorry.

CHANGE OF BLOGSKIN/HAPPY BIRTHDAY BBF

2010-08-19T00:23:00.001+08:00

my all time fav song. & me likee both of the singers too.
oh, meera fav too (:
finally i've change my blogskins. i'll settle with this for awhile.
so bbf bdae was a blast.
we watched Boeing Boeing. bbf dpt complementary tickets. wuhuuu!
i love it. sis was jealous cause i got to see adrian pang live (:
after the show we chilled arnd bugis while waiting for buka time.
bought 10 balloons for him. multi colours.
the bday boy bringing the balloons.
had our break-fast over at fika together with sis & boyf.
it was our first time there. the atmosphere was nice. i like.
but the food was okay okay lah. not really to our liking.
then headed to haji lane for shisha session. bbf like high already.
then gy karaoke @ grandlink! me no like the place.
hahaha. ni smuer tk plan. hahah.
bbf & i gone already. sis & boyf karaoke 2 org.
cabbed home & part with a big huggg!!
reached granny home arnd 0130.
i hope u had as much fun as i had bbf.
we shud do this more. december? our anniversary.ehehe.
been working almost everyday @ office.
tired i am. but the thought of money really give me motivation.
nxt wk will be one more hetic week for me ):
& im missing bbf already. meet up soon okay baby.
will update tml.
good night. toodles.

2010-08-08T03:13:00.002+08:00

love this song & adam lambert. idc whether he's a gay or not. i still love him (:

good morning. im still awake. time check, its 3am.
going JB later, celebrating lil bro belated birthday with family (:
alot has been happening this week.
re-organize my room & paint it. not fully complete.
still need a few more touchups. going shopping to ikea soon.
planning for bbf bday hasnt been going smooth.
maybe canceling it since the other two not cooperating.
i cant do this alone.
im not free myself. i still have to werk &plan out all this alone.
u guys demand this and that. but not willing to fork out the money?
meera has been behaving like chipsmore.
to me, she's like changing into someone which i hate.
haish. i dun wish to elaborate more. its ur life,
i dun have to right to question it.
i feel better after letting it out this way. i dun wish to hurt ur feelings.
im scared that my anger will take over me if i let things out to u guys.
its better this way.
but bbf on the other side has been really sweet (:
i mish you too lah bitch. hehehe.
idk what to give u seh b. hahah!
well, like raihan said, everything happen for a reason.
on the other hand. he has been asking me for a second chance.
pleading me & so.
a part of me says, let him be.
but another part of thinks, i should give him another chance & work things out.
i seriously dunnoe. well, i'll just go with the flow.
i aint wasting my tears.

2010-08-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

i guess august will always be a bad mnth for me. sigh.
since last yr.
every time im planning for Nas's bdae celebration,
some stupid stuffs will corrupt my mind.
oh why!
i dunwan to go thru all these once again.
once, twice is enough.
im trying my best to be strong & stop my tears frm falling.
to whoever u're, idk whats ur motive. but u win.
cause u manage to bring back my tears and bring me down.
Thanks hor.

2010-07-21T01:13:00.002+08:00

masai nyer muker aku. bt anak2 ayam tuu sungguh cute!

i cant sleeep!!!!
having insomnia i guess. haiyahh. naseb not werking tml.
i'll force myself to sleep early tml cause thursday werking!
*praying hard kena keje pat bishan! ahahah. okay lame!
so im always looking forward for tuesdays. idk why.
mayb cause ader CSI kot. im a huge fan of CSI. ampai leh bwk dlm mimpi.
okay basically thats not the point.
had a short lepak session with syaf @ my hse.
tiber2 member call ajak lepak. anjat gegerl.
so we chillmill. kecoh i tell u. with mum & sis lagi. gamat umah diuwt nyer.
so arnd 5plus she make a move. then we decided to buy roti @ KeatHong. enak dok!
last min plan, boyf decided to meet. suker tau blang aku last min! GRRR!
so we thot of lepak-ing under the blk when sis called & asked us to go home.
tuu pompan lagi 1, kecoh nk mampos!
lepak2 at home. masak maggi, aku lagi jadik mangse. hehehe.
watched boyf played my nintendo ds. kusyuk btol dier maen. ampai luper dunia. hahah!
thx dear for coming. i hope u tk serik dtg umah i (:
i'll see you on sat for the jemputan.
ohh yahh, meera is MIA-ing! aner lahh pompan ni pegi. uwt aku risau kn dier je.
missing her truckloads!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay aku dah start aku nyer mepek. BYE!

2010-07-20T03:38:00.001+08:00

i've change my blog link!
after 2yr plus using that old link. hahahah!
so do relink me aites (:
thats all. Have a nice day!
Im so gonna eat mum's Sambal Sotong! hahaha. im drooling!
hahah. okay bye!
ps: am waiting for syaf. we gonna melalak like there's no tmr!

2010-07-20T03:38:00.000+08:00

good morning (:

time check: 2.56 am. hahaha! currently using sis lappy to update.

i cant put myself to sleep.

had supper with sis just now. biaser lah, mkn maggie goreng.

i knw, i make the best maggie grg. u're wlcum sis! hehehe.

layan her crap until she fall asleep.

&& now aku kena layan diri sendiri. hahaha. best uh!

currently missing boyf & meera. grrr.

hmm, so lets recap how i spend my weekend. hehe.

SATURDAY

finally after months of not picnic-ing, we finally had a picnic session.

it was just me, meera, nasri & hafiz.

syaf couldnt make it due to some reasons.

nvrm, there's always nxt time (:

it was pouring like mad in the morning. thankgod it stops arnd noon.

our plan was to meet up at my place around 1 & headed out to BotanicGarden arnd 2.

but biaser lah meera & nasri. saper tk knal kn.

end up they reach my place arnd 2plus.

up jekk darah gue. so kiter pack2 brg & proceed to Botanic Garden.

reached Botanic Garden like 5 gituu. aper lagi, kiter mkn lah. lapar beb!

lepas tuu snap here & there. si hafiz nk step malu2 kerinting.

org suwoh amek gmbr nk step tknk!

kiter snapsnapsnap sampai tk ingat dunia. tuptup dah tau mlm.

gedebakgedubuk kiter kuar dari Botanic Garden arnd kul 8.45pm

bayangkan betape gelapnya botanic garden tuu bler mlm. takot jap.

naseb ader 2 abg hot! hahaha.

reached home exactly at 10pm. thx Nas sal antar aku ampai blk aku!

Syg kau (:

&& we took a total of 400+ pics within the 4hrs. ahhaha!

SUNDAY

mum & dad went out early in the morning with Makcu&Pakcu.

pagi2 dah merayap ke JB.

kecian aku & adk pat umah.

thot of meeting nurul for lunch bt last min tk jadik cause cik midah kuar.

hahaha. so one day of boredom at home with lil bro!

seksa dok layan tuu bdk kecik!!

mum bought lunch for us. so lpas mkn, tdo! ahahah...

had dinner @ Al-Azhar. sungguh aku kenyang.

RotiJohn dier meninggal beb! walaupun ader mustard!

hahahaa.

MONDAY.

rot at home. kemas umah. lunch with nurul @ KFC. lpak @ cik midah hse.

meet boyf under the void deck. homesweethome (:

yup. thats how i spend my weekend.

i hope nxt wk will be more exciting! me like me like!

ouhh yahh, bulan puaser is coming. followed by hari rayer.

im so not looking forward for rayer for some reasons.

it remind me of my pri schmates.hmm!

saper tau tuu diam2 jekk lahh yer. yang pasti,

this yr rayer will nvr be the same like the previous yrs ):

I think im gonna put myself to bed before i get emotional.

GoodNight everyone. i mean GoodMorning (:

2010-07-16T14:51:00.000+08:00

RULES

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button (ONLY ONCE!!!) to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS - even if it is incredibly embarrassing.
4. Tag 15 friends who might enjoy doing the same as well as the person you got the note from.

For being the shuffle button it really doesn't shuffle things up quite enough everything is almost spot on!

1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY...
Izinkan-Fauzie Laily

2) WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
OMG -Usher ft Will.I.Am

3) WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Cinta-Acha Septriasa ft Irwansyah

4) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Pyramid

5) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Stupid In Love-Rihanna

6) WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Favorite Girl

7) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Run This Town

8) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Kiss & Tell- Kesha

9) WHAT IS 2+2?
Dirty Picture- Taio Cruz ft Kesha

10) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Harapan

11) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Let It Rock

12) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Cookie Jar

13) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Shut it Down-Pitbull ft Akon

14) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Heartless-Kris Allen

15) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Whatya Want From Me-Adam Lambert

16) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Break Ur Heart-Taio Cruz ft Ludacris

17) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Nyala

18) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
If We Ever Meet Again-Timbaland ft Katy Perry

19) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
A Moment Like This-Kelly Clarkson

20) WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Putus-Newboyz

21) HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Light On-David Cook

22) WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Battlefield

23) WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Parachute-Cheryl Cole

24) WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Fireflies-Owl City

25) WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
HushHush-PCD

26) WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Fire Burning

27) DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Love me-Justin Bieber

28) IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
I Want To Knw What Love Is-Mariah Carey

29) WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Russian Roulette-Rihanna

30) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Broken

Hahahaha. I laugh my ass of everytime i click the nxt button. Kecoh!
found this quiz in Intan's blog. && i find it very interesting.
Intan, aku amek kau nyer quiz ni okay (:
Hahahaha.
Im bored. V bored siia!!!
i want tml to come fast lahh. going picnic with my happy pills. hahaha.
where? me oso dunnoe. we will see how lah tml yer kwn2.
okay lah, nk mandi nii.
AHHAHAHA. mampos! bocor rahsia! toodles.

2010-07-10T15:12:00.000+08:00

I'm bored! I'm bored! I'm bored! Ahhahaha. Using Sis iPhone to blog since she's using her lappy to practice singing. Lagu ziana Zain lak tuu. Tkleh carry sakk! This few days kan, alot ppl testing my patience tau including Faizal. Haahahh! Finally karma. Best tk?? So u knw how I feel now?!! Ahahahah. Evil sakk aku!!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-07-08T01:36:00.000+08:00

i knw i've been saying this alot. no, typing.
bt im really soey. my pemalas penyakit take control of me these few wks.
grrr. am not happy with it. hahahah!
im still werking part time, looking for a fulltime job!
tuu part i geram. go for interview but tk dpt2. tkper lah, bkn rezeki aku.
been feeling sick this week. idk whether i'll be werking or not.
cause bishan outlet is renovating soon. boohoo.
life has been quite good for me (:
im thankfully that i have the best family in the world.
the best friends in my life & Faizal.
at first i dont have the faith in him & this r/s.
cause i dunwan banana to fruit two times u knw. Hahhaha.
alhamdulilah.
he prove to me by waiting patiently for my return when i was @Indonesia for 10days.
never fail to msg me or call me everynight when i was there.
thankyou so much.
i cant promise u this will be perfect.
cause i aint perfect.
but i'll try my best to make this story a perfect one (:

2010-06-29T11:53:00.000+08:00

im sooo lazy to blog like now.
mayb i'll update soon when im in the mood.
i just came back frm indon. was there for 10days.
& im missing indon already. i mish staying at the kampong. lol!
i'll be werking on thursday. setakat uwt stock take. frm 12-5. okay lahh tuu!
so chat with u guys later. tata.

2010-06-03T23:01:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to me!! Yeahh (:

im already 19. wuhoo! I just wished to be a better person.
The moment the clock strikes 12, my hp was jammed with bdae wishes.
so is my facebook wall!
Thankyou so much guys. I didnt expect it (:
&& im touched. atleast there are ppl who remember my bdae.
awwww.
so didnt celebrate my bdae anywhere.
just a small gathering @ home.
so the plan was to meet meera first before we head to my house together2.
meet her @ bb mrt. then headed to JP.
aku kena tipu ngn si kecik ni. dier kater nk amek barang kak ngah.
tup3 dah ampai saner, dier bwk gy icing room. LOL!
happy gitu!!
this is the outcome. before & after.
kiter dua kerje kn!
nice kn3?? thanks ling for the surprise (:

so then we headed to my cribs. lepak2 jap. then kena chased out by mum.
kecian kn aku. birthday2 kena halau ):
so we lepak @ lot1 then meet up with syaf under her void deck & then to my cribs.
the moment i reach outside my hse, mum asked me to stay outside & dun move. Oouh! ahaah!
i was blindfolded & escorted to my room.
scary. aner tau dorg nk masok kn aku dlm lubang jamban. LOL!
i can feel balloons all over the floor. & then mum gave me a stick.
&& at that moment i knew, they granted my wish. i wanted a pinata. hhahah!
aku ketok nyer ketok ampai giveup. last2 aku tarik tuu bender turun & pijak2 dier.
with my eyes still blindfolded. shiok!
this was before & after pictures.
kecian unicorn tuu.

fast forward. i saw a big carebear sitting on my bed. oh u're so cute (:
thanks sis& abg shah.

then when i look at my door, i saw daddy! awww. he came home early (:
had cake cutting session. & yahh, nurul made it in time.
wahh sis cake was yummy. bt nk blow the candles fuhh, menyeksa aku.
ampai tkleh bernafas. dorg beli candle yg susah nk mati!
biaser lah, muker aku jadik sasaran! haiyah, naseb aku tk akai lawa2.
snapsnapsnap.
dinner time. sdap dok mkn nasi briyani. thanks mama.
then had camwhore session plus gossip-ing session. sis went off early cause she got exam tml.
thanks for everything (:
overall i had fun on my special day.
without ur existence, i manage to survive (:
these ppl are my pillar of strength.
soey, no pictures of mum & dad ):

u mean nothing to me now.
NOTHING!
ThankYou so much guys (:

2010-06-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

muker samer sehh! LOL!
hahaha.
idk what to update sehh. im just bored.
hmm, just go with the flow jekk lahh yer?!
went out with mum in the afternoon. go clementi. not much stuffs bought.
had my late lunch @ clementi central. the wantan noodle sdap & cheap.
teringat maser ite mkn ngn shidah, farah & matt. oh i mish those times (:
moving on. my bdae is like less than a day away.
oh man, im turning 19! oldoldold.
thankgod i've cleared my mind before my birthday (:
&& sok tkyahh keje! yessahh!!
i need tml badly. i need to clean up dusty room.
& i need to start packing my stuffs for indon trip (:
speaking of which, im having an interview this friday @ one of my buddy workplace.
harap2 dapat lahh *crossing finger*
but i can only start werk on the last week of june.
okay, at this point idk why im typing all this.
so the random.
hahaha! maybe i just hit on the bed now.
goodnite ppls!
&& i mish my Chef Khalid look alike (:
maybe meeting him on friday as well. MAYBE!

2010-06-01T01:24:00.000+08:00

good morning (:
i cant sleep siia. && since im bored, i decided to blog.
furthermore raihan dier noisy2 suwoh org update. ahahah!
idk whats wrong with blogger, bt i cant upload photos.
isit just me that having this problem?
shit lahh!
so lil bro has fly to sabah this morning.
or shud i said ydae morning? oh watever lahh.
he'll be returning to singapore nxt monday.
so he'll miss my birthday & kak yana's wedding.
i already missing my handsome brother. no one to irritate me for 8 days ):
im really sorry for neglecting my blog. been bz with work lahh. tml working frm 5pm-11pm. &&thursday will be my 19th birthday.
not working i guess, mum already plan something for me!
meera coming over, sis bf coming over! yeahh!! just a mini gathering. cause everyone is like not free, maybe other days. just beep me okay?
mum gonna take me to shopping later. i hope the plan is still on.
im in need of new clothes. new everything. new ayesha.
no, no more ayesha. Nuraa better.
after 6mnths of hell, i finally move on. yesh. amazingly. idk what happen. alhamdulilah.
i just wanna focus on my future & i wunt look back to my past. nvr.
thanks to everyone who nvr fail to encourage me.
especially to meera, my pillar of strength. iloveyou bestie (:
&& Muhd Nasri, imy truckloads siaa!!

2010-05-29T22:32:00.000+08:00

date with Hayatmin was awesome.
shud do this more often (:
i'll update more tml night.
i need my sleep. will be werking tml. tml please dun come! i lazy nk werk!

2010-05-29T10:20:00.000+08:00

been longing to blog.
but everytime nk blog, ader jekk aku tersidetracked. hahaha!
biaser, saper tk knal nuraa.
okay watever.
been busy with work lately.
actually ydae i was not working. the last min dpt call & need to work @ OG.
okay lahh tuu. 1st time dok. i like. heheh!
so after work meet up with mum & dad, look for lil bro's tights. 1 town aku jalan.
then had later dinner @ Nasi Ayam Penyet Ria. best!
oh yahh, lil bro will be flying to Sabah this coming monday.
oh tidaaaaakkk! im soo gonna mish him alot......
dun forget my present okay bby??
its only 1030 in the morning & im wide awake.
waiting for Hayatmin to txt me. going dating with him later.
he said, my advance bdae dating. ader2 jekk bdak kecik ni.
hahaha! mati2 nk ngok The Last Song.
appreciate it alot. atleast someone care to make me happy (:
oh yahh, Happy 14th Birthday to my fake brother, Afiq Syahiran (:
kau tipu aku eh, kater bdae kau on the 30th. aku cincang kau karang!
wait & see okay??

i think i'll stop here. ni to kemas here & there.
i'll update again later if im not lazy & tired.
cause tml werking at OG PP. oh no. die3.
still mentally not stable. but i feel much better now (:

2010-05-22T12:46:00.000+08:00

i have so many things to update. but somehow im lazy to upload the pics.
it'll take alot of time just to upload a few pictures.
oh watever. i uploaded all the pictures @ facebook. easier.
pejam celik pejam celik its nearly the end of the month.
my bday coming. i knw. bt trust me, im not looking forward for it.
like seriously. i dun ask for much, all i want is a gathering with my fwens.
is that even hard for u guys to make it happen??
for those who have exams, i understand.
mayb i'll just rot at home on my bday. simple. tkyahh kuar duit.
i feel unappreciated. i took the initiative(sp?) & asked ur opinion beforehand.
all u said is No, No & No.
ahh watever lah ngn kau! aku mls nk lyn!
im mentally unstable.

2010-05-12T19:39:00.000+08:00

hello mello (:
im one happy girl today. hmm, not really happy lahh.
im a happy girl today because i went shopping with my best friend. lol.
so the english. & soo the feeling2 perfect. aper aku mepek sakk??!
finally pay in. aper lagi. shopping lahh!
i shop @ cotton on. together2 with meera. sumpah kecoh.
bought a pair of new slippers. one of the top that i've been wanting to get since sis bought it.
i was looking for black & grey bt only left with white. beli jekk lahh!
then tried a few of the tops & cardigan.
&& i fell in love with this cardigan. so decided to grab it without looking @ the pricetag.
i only realised that it was $30 when the guy told me! Haiyahh!
i still love it. then we roamed the whole of lot1. bought another top @ This Fashion.
pastuu singgah sane sini. then headed home with meera.
bt then patah alek pat lot1 cause nk exchange to cardigan! penat doh!
i burn a hole in my wallet sehh!
i think im just gonna spend my salary. i need clothes man!
nnt nk g indon nk akai aper? daun ker??! so i think i'll werk like mad this mnth & bring watever i get to indon. cepat, ringkas & mudahh. LOL!
so mum, i'll just pay ur $30 & dad's $20 okay? (:
oh yahh, meera dah ader twitter. kencang sehh!!
im so looking forward for friday... girls day out. camwhore session!!! cant wait.
nurul & meera make sure u girls dress up aites!

2010-05-10T20:33:00.000+08:00

not in my best mood.
yeahh.
idk what to blog abt. bt somehow i need to unwind myself.
which idk how. i need help. its way way complicated. haish.
& to add to the complicated situation, my bestfriend isnt here with me.
idk where she disappear to.
i tried reaching her umpteen times but couldnt get thru.
maybe she avoiding me?? i hope not ):
& now, im not really looking forward for friday.
but the plan still on. i need to shop a little.
& also unwind like i said earlier.
i tried not to think abt all this.
every night before i sleep, i'll pray & wish that all this is just a dream.
i knw its not. i have to face it by hook or by crook.
mcm amazing gitu, lepas satu2 decide to crush me, hurt me & bring me down.
thanks hor. idk what make u guys decided to do this to me?
give me hope then hurt me. sampai aku dah lali.
&& as you knw, im not in the mood to celebrate my bday.
i dunwan june to come. but im looking forward to go Indon.
atleast i can run away frm all this shit!!

2010-05-04T13:27:00.000+08:00

yes i knw. like meera said, my blog very the berabok.
what to do. busy carik duit.
hahaha. finally, 4 days of werking ended.. pheww!!
imagine 8-9 hrs of standing for 4 days straight??!
kaki aku da mintak ampun.
so this week idk whether im werking or not. hahaha!
bt min already book me tml for study session again.
& today im meeting Nurul in awhile.
will be heading to JP cause she need to get some stuffs.
after that i got no plans. i hope that i'll be werking this weekend.
better to keep myself occupied with stuffs rather than thinking abt him.
yes i admit, i still cant get over him after all this while.
dun ask me why cause i myself dun have the answer ):
Fuck you Sunny!
so yeahh, my bday is less than a mnth. wahh!
i knw i shud be excited.
bt the nearer it gets, i no longer feel the excitment.
i was looking forward to my bdae last few mnths.
but some ppl really love to bring my mood down.
tk ker saket ati??!
i was just saying then on the spot member kater tkleh.
aru ckp tau..lum uwt planning smuer.
tk ker hancur hati aku!!!
baek aku tkyahh celebrate ngn korg. puas hati aku celebrate sorg2!!!!
menyakitkn hati jekkk!!!!
ni kn, lau meera bacer. confem chop2 dier akan kater.
'org2 mcm gni mesti dihapuskn' hahaha!

2010-04-28T11:00:00.000+08:00

hair oh hair. imysm tau! pls grow faster. make sure june dah panjang okay syg?

what to update eh?
hmm. actually i wanted to update ydae. bt tersidetrack lak.
hehehe. currently stuck @ home. waiting for Min to txt me. cpat noh!!
frm tml till sun, i'll be werking my ass off! see, soo hardworking. org laen holiday, aku keje.
tkper. money money money masok manyak2. haha!
currently layan-ing halim playing bowling pat msn.
ni lahh org2 dilanda kemendakkan.
so its set, im meeting Min later for tuition. hahah. tuition ker aper??!
maklum lahh. exam coming right? hahaha!
he's coming to cck. hahah!
idk whether meera tagging along or not later. she's currently @ IMM.
okay lah, i'll update later after i come back. see yah!

2010-04-25T18:01:00.000+08:00

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2010-04-23T10:45:00.000+08:00

im officially bored!
seriously, ampai blh layan the hammy siia.
actually i have alot of this to do. edit my blog, naj blog.
bt lazy lahh. somemore jap agek nk g werk. lagi lah plus plus aku nyer mls.
see lahh. tknk kasik aku keje ari2. kn aku dah mls nk keje.
my mouth gatal2. sal tadi mkn udang. hurhurhur. sensitive.
my routine for this few days have been the same.
cumer smlm jekk laen. lol!
but my body is aching all over. me dunnoe why sehh.
like not enough rest like dat.
cause i always sleep arnd 1-2am the night before
& i will wake up like arnd 7 or 8 in the morning. wth!haiyahh!
naseb nari werk kul 2. bt tetap tkleh alek cpat.
i hope ader sales lahh nari. bowing sakk berdiri lamer2 & tk lyn org.
see lahh. soo random. okay lahh i time to mandi!
bubbye smue!!!

2010-04-21T22:40:00.000+08:00

holla. look @ the time.
i knw, i shud be sleeping. i will after updating my blog (:
went out today. at first with meera
then meet up with chef khaled look alike & min.
sumpah kecoh.
me & meera was cracking our heads to help min.
finding the simplest way to teach him. alhamdulilah. berjaya jgk.
will be meeting up with him this sat. insyallah.
& then sun will head down to the gym with meera & nas. insyallah also.
so, who's this chef khaled look alike? abg khid lahh. hahah!
shud ask him later if he gt any blood relation with chef khaled. LOL!
stop it sakk ayesha.
i think this week im not werking like again.
haiyahh. how want to earn $$$ mcm ni!!
bingit tau! nvrm, i shall go for job hunting nxt wk!!
okay lah, mater i dah berat. nnt i update lagi!!!
nite2. mwahh!

2010-04-20T12:27:00.000+08:00

my one & only boybestfwen. lol. already mishing him.
remember okay?? my bdae present.
& those stuffs we discuss the other day. *winks
actually i already did a draft of my post earlier today.
bt somehow blogger didnt save it. oh man! kecian jari2 ku!
soey for not updating much. im just plain lazy lahh!
hahaha. okay, as u guess already knw.
Achik Spin passed away on 17/04/10.
i was shocked when i receive the news frm sis.
even meera & naj. it was so sudden.
just a few days back, meera & i karaoke his songs,
praising how him & stuffs.
dahh ajal dier. kiter yg hidup cumer leh berdoa ):
a great lost i must say.
i grew up listening to his songs.
like, mlm semakin dingin, insan ku syg kini menghilang,
memori berkasih & more.

i bet im not gonna sing his songs in the nearest time.
Semoga roh nya dicucuri rahmat
& ditempatkn bersama org2 yg beriman. Amin.
okay, we shall change the topic cause im getting abit emotional.
& i have alot to update (:
april is gonna leave us soon. soo fast, i knw. then may will come.
pastuu june! & its gonna be my birthday. my 19th bday :0
oh my, im getting old siia.
but on the other hand i've got all the reason in the whole to ask ppl for present kn3?
ahaha. tktau malu nyer pompan!
so shud i remind u guys abt my wish list?? ^^,

actually there's more lahh. bt tknk put. all expensive sakk!
saper nk g lyn aku kn?? lol!
naj kater dier nk beli kn patrickk star.
abg khid kater nk beli kn care bear, so i give him choice lah. heheh
sis say anna sui okay go!!
yg g-shock ni. nas, meera pandai2 lah korg share duit. LOL!
joking jekk! jgn marah hor.
& as for me wanting shrek back?
hmm, i still want him back.
but lau tk dpt nk uwt camner?
actually, i dun mind not getting presents.
its the thoughts that counts (:
all i want is to celebrate my bday together with all my bestfwens!
korg2, i nk suprise okay? LOL.
i guess thats all for now. nnt mlm lau ader ilham lagi, i update.
toodles! mwahh!
&& JUSTIN BIEBER IS SOOO CUTE!!!

2010-04-15T22:19:00.000+08:00

i knw i've been neglecting my blog again. haiyahh!
i've been bz with alot of stuffs. chey mcm phm tol!
anyways. im back again. & naj is also back with blogging! hahaha.
gerek gituu.
not working this week i guess.
cause monday i went to office to do some stuffs.
sumpah penat. then after that met sumone for dinner.
chitchat for awhile before heading home.
then the nxt day ( i think lahh) meet up with naj to do some shopping!
last min plan beb. we go library. lpak @ macd, gossip!!
then trus i dun remember anything. STM lah sehh!
i need motivation!! alot pls!!
possible tak lau i aim to lose 5kg-8kg within 2mnths??
i need to change. physically & mentally (:
i wunt be the same if we meet again.
mayb i'll still love u the same. but.... i wunt be the same Ayesha u knew.
this is for real. i really need support frm my love ones.

2010-04-09T22:34:00.000+08:00

oops! pic dier ader sikit corrupted! dun mind (:

soey for mia-ing. was bz & lazy to update blog. hahah
soey hor. just return frm werk. tired & hungry ):
my perut like perigi already. full with water bt not food!
hahahah. kecoh lah pompan ni sorg!!
seriously idk what to update.
i promise i'll update a proper post (:
toodles! niteeeeeeeeeee..

2010-04-06T17:44:00.000+08:00

OMG!! i mish werking with this whole bunch of crazy ppl.
& more lah of course.
looking at this pic can make me tear up sehh.
idk why. just feel like we bonded like a family.
then suddenly one by one start quiting ):
haish. i knw im asking the impossible.
each one of us have our own life now. haishh!
i really want to meet u guys!

2010-04-02T13:17:00.000+08:00

i know i look weird. hahah.

okay, this post will be very random. hahah!
im all alone at home right now. dad&lil bro went for friday prayers.
while mum is over @ cikmidah cribs. idk when she'll come home! grr.
im hungry siaa. no food!
today alot of plan cancel ):
thot of going Sentosa with raihan, bt tk jadik.
then was suppose to meet someone & lpak today.
bt see lah, dah kul 130 still havent txt me.
i guess he's still sleeping lor. hahah! nvrm, nxt time sdah.
soo i guess im following mum&dad lor. go carik aju adk! tk abes2!!
what time eh friday prayers finish?? hmmm.
okay lah, i update later.
i want to go mandi! ahahah. bnyk busuk!
adios!

edited:

im home baby! hahaah.
when out for awhile. search for lil bro kemeja @ pennisular.
he found one & i must say he look extremely hot in it!
biaser lahh, adk saper?? perasan!
i mish meera already. she left for msia w/o a single msg ):
sedih tauu.
i was in my happy mood awhile ago.
bt now no more liao. no more happyhappy already.
nk tau asl? dunwan to tell lahh. better if no one knws.
i really need someone to talk to. bt who??!
haishh. mayb i shud keep this to myself?
how long more sehh.
no, its not abt sunny alone. its more complicated.
no one will understand.

2010-04-01T21:06:00.000+08:00

i just reach home frm werk! pheww.
no lah, actually i knock off early today,
when i was otw home i saw lil bro&mum heading towards lot1.
check2 member nk g dinner. aper lagi, aku pn join lahh! ahahah.
i thot of changing my blogskin. last2 aku fedup sendiri!
haiyahh. nxt time lah.
yahh, i knw my blog song so the oldies & pasrah! ahaha.
im addicted to this song since its been played over & over @ werkplace.
ngah lipat2 aju aku leh nyanyi sorg2. giler!
today kinda off boring at werk. naseb ader meeting.
dpt jgk buang maser.
&& i cant focus at werk sehh. idk why.
i dreamt of him again ydae. i dreamt that he was mine again.
& live happily ever after.
will it happen? mepek lah aku ni!
its already april.
how time flies. 2 more months to 19th Bdae sehh!
ahahah. nk uwt wishlist now can?
i want a lappy. vaio tau daddy! ahahah.
i've been eyeing on this perfume since last year.
anyone care to buy me one?
hehehe.

more makeup stuffs.
doesnt have to be MAC lah. hehehe.

lastly i want my Shrek back!
i promise i'll be a gd princess fiona to him (:
i really mish him sehh.
i want him for my 19th bdae, 20th bdae & so on.
cn3??

2010-03-29T17:22:00.000+08:00

hallo!!! hahaahah. im a gd mood. hahaah

finally i went out ydae with my happypills. gerek abes nyer!!

celebrated annah 21st bdae. 1st meera, naj & me headed to plaza sing.

reach there arnd 4 plus.

booked a place @ swensen then search for annah bdae cake.

bought it @ carrefour. sumpah kecoh.

sumore org yg pat counter tuu uwt keje punyer lahh slow.

satu2 dah bingit sehh. tibai dier pun cantek sehh.

arnd 5 annah & jannah reach. soo no hegeh2, we go mkn!

&& bag aku jadik mangsa letak cake. konon2 nyer nk kasik suprise lahh.

eateateat, snapsnap, laughlaugh.

we then headed to bugis for shesha-ing session.

sungguh kecoh sehh.

kecian naj, meera kena drag annah turun naek just bcause kiter nk suwoh workers pat situ tlg simpankn dier nyer cake.

soey yer annah tkder candle for u.

atleast ramai jgk org nyanyi kn kau bdae song kn, bkn kiter jekk.

anyways, meera & annah 1st timer. bt meera like pro already.

tk ku sangka! hahaha

annah lak, no comment. org suwoh sedut, dier blow. annah2.

hahhaahha. kecoh lah tuu bdae girl.

then arnd 10 plus meera & me gerak. pecut abes kn ling? hahah.

take train home. ader eyecandies. hahha. i like.

i had fun with u girls lahh.

i want more!! nxt will be on the 7th kn naj?? party beb!!

pictures will be uploaded @ fb by tonight.

so, feel free to tag urself okay babes? hahah.

&& im werking this wk!! wed & thurs. alhamdulilah.

atleast ader jgk duit masok. hehehe.

call me stupid, call me crazy.

i dun care.

im still gonna wait for u. cause no point moving on when i knw i cant.

2010-03-27T17:56:00.000+08:00

i cant believe i survived 3 days of boredom at home.
yessa!! hahahaah.
i wanna go out. bt to where? with who??
haiyahhh. no one to accompany me already. everyone bz with their stuffs. sob3.
bt kn, tml annah ask me out. bt sumhow i dun have the mood nk ikot.
see lahh. thats the problem with me this few wks.
idk why sehh. pls help me someone!!!
april is getting nearer! which means, i need to save up!!!
i must say that this wk has been hard on me.
battling with my own emotions. not letting it over rule me.
been thinking abt ***** lately ):
making me lost my mood. i feeling like giving up.
i cant hold on anymore. pls make me forget everything.

his fav song ♥

2010-03-25T18:52:00.000+08:00

awwww. shrekk is soooo cute. hahah!
watever ayesha. ni lahh jadik nyer lau dah dilanda kemendakkan.
will not be werking this whole week. so is syaf.
wat to do. rot jekk lah pat umah.
niwaes, meet up with my two ladies ydae.
without naj cause she was werking.
& it was a last min plan.
headed to syaf's cribs. we cooked lunch for ourself.
aru masak maggi dah kecoh. hahaha! naseb tk runtuh umah syaf.
then we watched adnan sempit thru syaf's lappy sambil makan maggi.
sempat kiter gossip in between.
then start to play board games, cards.
& luck was on my side cause i keep winning every game.
sungguh aku happy.
but ader jekk yg uwt aku nyer darah up.
naseb kak syaf & kak meera tlg cool kn darah sayer. hahaha.
meera went back arnd 7 plus while i stayed until 10.
kecohh. must do this often (:
& oh yahh, i knw the post below is full of anger & emotion.
hahah. nk delete tknk? hmm.
guess i'll just leave it there lor (:
oh, its already pass 7pm. gtg. wanna watch my fav show.

2010-03-21T13:31:00.000+08:00

achooo!! blog soo berabok!
pardon me for not updating my blog. bz werking lahh.
bt i did manage to meet up with BFFs. w/o meera cause she was away.
had wantan noodle for lunch && then secret recipe for dessert! hahaah
superb! now, i mish Nasri. ahahah!
someone ask me out the 7april. party. tapy cm mls uh. tkder mood.
soey uh beb. nxt time lpas aku dpt gaji okay?
okaayy. nk go mandi. heheh. confem sejok!!

2010-03-18T12:05:00.000+08:00

holla. im back. soey for MIA-ing. bz the whole week. not bz with werk. bz ngn kekawan!

hahaha. speaking of kekawan, aku rindu NORAMIRAH BTE KAMIS!!!

bler lahh kau nk alek!! aku, syaf, naj dahh rinduu!!

currently i thot of taking up another job. i need money man!
i need to save 500bucks for indo trip alone.

then i need to save another 1K for my course. haiyahhh.

ni blum termasok bill hp, topup ezlink.

with my current job, its not possible cause im a part timer.

so saper2 yg nk gy carik werk, jgn segan2 ajak sayer yer. sayer nk ikot.

okay lahh, gtg. nk siap2 nk g werk!!

ur presence makes a difference (:

2010-03-14T12:16:00.000+08:00

currently not in my best mood. seriously.
all our effort, time & money go down the drain.
if i knw this will happen, i rather work sakk!
buang maser aku.
to those who didnt turn up & dun bother to txt us.
thankyou very the much. appreciate it alot...!!
be it the guys or the girls (:
this gonna be the first & the last.
i wunt be bothered to do another gathering!
&& saper yg kater bowing tuu, korg nyer sluar dlm.
ader hati nk kater bbq kiter bowing? tapi in the 1st place kn, kau dtg ker??!

2010-03-11T18:44:00.000+08:00

haiyahh! im sooo the tired.
just came back frm shieng shiong. sumpah aku kepenatan.
went shopping with my happy pills.
counting down to saturday. yeahhh!!
gaji dahh masok. so far i've bought myself 2 tops,
a pair of flipflops & 3pairs of earings (:
hahhahah. idk whether to buy the bags & heels that i've been eyeing.
hmm. buy or not. stress aku.

2010-03-10T18:30:00.000+08:00

i'll not be updating for these few days. currently bz.
bbq is coming!! pay is in! yessa!!!

2010-03-09T17:33:00.000+08:00

time to update blog (:

oh look at the date. Happy 21st Bday Sunny (:
didnt knw u read my blog.
no worries, i'll delete everything that's related to you.
5 more days & counting && still waiting for my pay. aiyooh2.
this week will be extremely busy for me.
confem ari2 kuar. sok going marsiling to alter sluar with syaf.
thursday lak going shopping for the bbq stuffs.
friday duduk umah diam2.
AKU EXCITED!! AKU EXCITED!! AKU EXCITED!!
hahaahah. sewel.
ouhh yesh. ydae went out with Syaf & Meera to bugis.
just to give my punch card. kecoh i knw.
had lunch @ TongSheng together with Nina as she having her break.
sumpah kecoh. ketawer tk ingat dunia sehh kiter.
after that we train-ed back to cck. then jln to sunshine to survey some stuffs.
i then headed to syaf's hse, meera lak alek. hahah.
at the end of the day. satu2 complain kaki saket.
aku jitak korg karang!!
adios!

2010-03-07T20:59:00.000+08:00

Soey for not updating my blog for a few days.
been bz with some stuffs this few days. hahaha.
saper2 yg tau diam2 jekk! *winks!
Gaji oh Gaji.
cpat lahh masok.. i wanna go shopping.
went out with meera for awhile tadi.
sumpah mater aku rambang.
BHG @ cck having a sale. the bags were super cheap siiaa!!
i wanna buy!!! && we went to cotton on.
setakat wash2 eyes jekk. skali this 3inch heels caught my eyes.
try punyer try skali muat lahh sehh!! Oh my gucci!!
i dun care. im gonna buy that heels!!
&& im still thinking whether to buy Iphone or not. hmmm..
i guess im buying! hahaah. mepek sak!!
this whole of nxt week will be a hectic wk for me & the girls.
soo many things to do bt so lil time...
but im freaking excited!! sat pls come fast!!
2 more days to Sunny 21st Bdae ):
okay2 i knw. i shud stop talking abt him.
okay lahh, update more tml.
nk g maen CafeWorld (:

2010-03-02T12:56:00.000+08:00

idk whats wrong with me today, bt mcm ader urge g2 nk blog.
hahaha. tangan gatal.
meeting syaf arnd 2. we going ten mile junction.
survey2 barang & caculate our budget.
supposely skg aku dah kena siap2 sehh.
aner nk mandi, siap2, kemas bilik. haiyoohh. mls sungguh aku nk makeup nari.
sometimes i wonder. does sunny remember me at all after our breakup?
even for a min. does he? i dun have the ans.
how i wish i've super powers. leh bacer pikiran org. hmm.
okay, basically im spouting nonsense.
later at night i'll post a proper update (:
toodles.

/edited @ 2115
just send syaf home (:
we were out the whole day
& had discussion over at my hse since it was raining.
&& i must say, otak kiter mcm nk meletup after calculating everything.
number dier uwt tangan aku mengigil!!!
oh well. didnt knw that more problem will arise.
haiyoohh. nasri said he couldnt make it. we almost cried in front of the comp.
haish. saper sehh tk sedih. without nasri, it wunt be complete ):
then everyone like not cooperating gitu.
bt now alhamdulilah, everything is back on track.
but im still disappointed sehh. haish.
cukup lah lau aku sorg jekk tau naper.
seriously idk what im gonna do. what to say. or how to react.
aku binggung, aku benggang, aku stress!!
PAHAM??!!!

2010-03-01T22:42:00.000+08:00

i cant believe that my hair is growing so fast!!! yessaaa!! hahaha.
indeed im in a happy mood today.
its already the 1st of March. soooo fast....
13 is just arnd the corner. 12 days to be exact!
im sexcited!
on the 8 is my pay (:
9 is Sunny bdae ):
going shopping for the bbq stuffs on the 11.
i cant waaaaaiiitt!! saper2 nk dtg blang lah sayer. heheh.
i pity my fwen. a close fwen to be exact. she's going thru a nasty breakup.
haish. i seriously dunnoe whats with guys nowadays.
not that i have issues with them. bt just wondering.
they want us to be perfect for them
& they forget that we're normal human beings.
&& they themselves are not perfect.
so whats the point??
haish. eja, i hope u'll be strong okay bby??
i knw how u feel. no point crying over him.
mungkin kau pat sini ingat kn dier, nangis untuk dier.
bt on the other side kau tktau aper dier uwt kn?
aner tau dier ngah happy2 ngn member dier.
im here for you (:

2010-02-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

i want this feeling to end.
feelings for you, our memories. senang kater everything abt you, Sunny.
yesh i want to move on. no point holding on if you already let go.
i wunt promise that i'll forget you. bt im gonna try my best.
this few days are not my best days.
no one to be by my side when i need someone to talk to.
it hurt soooo much.
idk who else to turn to. haish.
the attention when i need frm a fwen isnt there when i needed the most.

2010-02-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

i want to update. bt im so tired sehh. nvrm, will update tml nite after i come back frm JB aites??
monday i have date with Hazwan aka Akak Tua (: ahahaha.
nite2 ppl. mwahh!!

2010-02-23T18:07:00.000+08:00

oh man! i cant wait for 13/03/10. no wait before that i cant wait for my pay (:
i still have alot of planning & discussion to do with the girls.
what to buy, what to bring & whole lot of other stuffs!
still thinking whether we shud buy cake or bake the cake ourselves?
other than that, i still have to werk.
ouh well, i dun mind. mcm best g2.
what can i say. im enjoying every min of my life.

yesh, its difficult to move on without you. bt im moving on bit by bit.
Looking back on everything, I still remember his smile.
I wish things didn't end so soon, and turn back time for awhile.
No matter how much it hurts, I still love him so.
A part of me needs him so much, can't seem to let him go.
Knowing I won't be able to see him,makes my heart cry out in pain.
I can't believe we won't talk anymore, the thought makes me wanna go insane.
He was my reason for waking up, for the smile you see on my face.
Going a single day without him, makes me feel so out of place.

2010-02-19T10:18:00.000+08:00

okay that pic is sooooo wrong!!

hahaha.
will be werking later. hahah. sooooooooo lazy. tuu lah dah 3 hari off kn??
sch results are out.
meera, raihan & me are shortlisted. kena g interview dier on monday.
aiyoohh! soo the seram lahh sehh. hopefully i'll get that course.
currently im in my planning mood (:
planning for a gathering.
never know it will be such a hassle.
syaf nk gini, meera nk gini. soooo cerewet.
now left with deciding the venue for the gathering. hmmm.
i just hope everyone will confirm by this wk. haha.
skg aru sayer tau. rupe2 nyer si minmin senyap2 bacer blog sayer. hahah!
okay lahh. sayer nk maen cafe world jap. pastuu nk mandi && go werk.
bubbbbyyeeeeeeeeeeeee....

2010-02-17T20:53:00.000+08:00

oh-oh! tml date is the 18th. oh man! why like so fast eh this wk??!
hahaah. ngok lahh. typical btol aku ni.
bler 18th tk ampai2 punyer lah sexcited.
ni bler 18th bsok, punyer lah penakut!!
wth! thank god i gt 3 days off this wk. hahaha. enjoy!
had karaoke session...again!
only with meera. sis, bf & yana played monopoly.
kirekn kiter mcm entertainment g2 lahh. ader music background!!
sumpah sumbang kiter nyanyi. hahah.
had pizza for dinner (:
lagi sumore what to update?? abt werk?
normal jekk. ohh yahh. at my werkplace ader 1 bapok tua ni...
ewwwwwwww. benci i ngn dier.
org senyum pat dier, dier nk maen jeling2 lak.
skali aku tibai aru tau. dah lah kening mcm logo nike!!
watever lahh.. ckp sal dier heart pain2!!
I'm just going to live my life,
Hoping someday you'll come back
Or somehow, someway I will forget you ):
Sunny

2010-02-14T15:12:00.000+08:00

hello mello.
finally sunday! holiday. hahah. tml werking dahh! hahaha.
btw HAPPY CNY!! HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!!
&& also HAPPY BDAY TO NATASYA!
HAHAHA. 3 in 1.
ydae after werk which was arnd 4, i headed down to westcoast.
yes. me alone. imagine dari bishan to westcoast!
tkder entertainment. except my mp3 ):
took cab frm clem. && the taxi driver bnyk bodoh sehh.
dier yg tktau drive, nk mrh2 org. CB tul! dah lah aku lapar!! up jekk!!
sampai jekk, aku attack ayam2 yg sudah menunggu!
pastu ader marshmallow with hersey ! ya ampun! heaven nohh.
hahaha. overall i had alooooooooooooooot of fun!
nk uwt bbq lagi2. saper nyer bdae??!
i nyer lahh. blh3?
18th, copet lahh dtg!! i tk sbr ni. nk schooooooooll!!!
&& i wanna save money for indon trip (:

No one ever sees her cry,
Never sees her hurt,
They all think she's strong,
No one knows they're wrong.

If only they knew,
Knew how her heart breaks,
All the scars she carries,
The nightmares that dark brings.

She still plays that childhood game,
Except now it has a different name,
Now it's called surviving,
Getting through the days.

The little white lies,
The perfect fake smile,
That carefully crafted laugh
That girl has fooled them all.

Now her whole life is one big game,
Everyone has joined in,
And she didn't even want to play,
But he's made her into a perfect little actress,
So she has no choice,
And this one is her biggest pretend yet.

2010-02-12T21:42:00.000+08:00

today was my off day.
spend it with my BFF's. only not complete. hahah!
karaoke session & dinner @ my place. what more can i ask?
full of laughter, nonsense && bitching!! i want more cn3?
now i knw the difference between RASER & PEGANG!
thanks to Muhd Nasri bin Selamat (:
had KFC for dinner. that was the only meal i ate the whole day.
sumpah i kebulur maser ngah karaoke. hahaah!
ampai nyanyi pn dahh mepek.
so after magrib they blahh. && meera laugh very weird siiaa!!
i oso dunnoe why. sewel!!
im bored. currently chatting with meera & syaf! sungguh kecoh.
&& idk when is my pay. selenger pehh aku!
tml werking. thank god half day!
sunday off!! YESSAA!!! saper2 nk ajak sayer kuar?? hahaahh.
Ouhyahh.
i was bloghopping & cross upon a blog.
not that i want to kutuk or anything lahh. bt like mepek sehh.
i knw lahh u sgl. bt nk heboh2 pat smuer org yg kau dah braper mnth sgl.
uwt pehh? motive nyer?? nk smuer org tau??
lau kau dahh 1 atau 2 tahun sgl tuu tkper. ni aru 1-2 bulan! hahaah.
org yg dah bertahun sgl pn tk heboh2 sehh!
& kau ckp kau sgl & not looking for love.
bt the way u update ur blog kn....
SO LOOKING FOR ATTENTION SEHH!!
tk perlu lahh.
one moment u said u still in love with ur ex.
understandable, i knw how it feels.
bt the nxt moment, u talking abt guys. && stuffs. hahaha! LAME.
pikir hotstuff pehh??
SERIOUSLY IM NOT JEALOUS A LIL BIT.
just putting down my thoughts (:
soey lahh lau saper2 teraser yer.

2010-02-11T11:35:00.000+08:00

Besar kesilapanku besar lagi kesilapanmu
Hampa yang kau rasakan hampa lagi perasaanku
Kau cuba menyatakan aku
Menbuat kesilapan
Yang tak mungkin kau maafkan lagi
Ku tak mungkin kau perlu di sisi

Besar kesalahanku besar lagi keegoanmu
Berkali ku beri alasan berkali-kali kau menolaknya
Kau ingin ku menyatakan
Diri ini bagai lilin
Dan terbakar oleh perbuatanmu

Suasana sepi kini menambahkan bening
Di dalam hatiku
Mengadil silapmu biar di jiwamu aku telah tiada
Di waktu begini diusik kenangan silam
Yang bertandang
Lalu ku biarkan
Ia menabahkan hati ini

Kekasihku cukup engkau buat ku begini
Luka ini usah engkau berdarahkan kembali
Aku masih cinta padamu
Aku masih setia padamu
Kembalilah engkau padaku seperti dahulu

Di dalam rindu ku menangis
Di dalam kalbu ku terasa
Teringatmu di kala derita
Yang memisahkan kita

Di dalam sedu ku berseru
Yang terukir di dalam hatiku
Kekasih bukalah pintu
Untuk sekali ini
Aku cinta kepadamu

2010-02-10T21:19:00.000+08:00

Too much of anything can make you sick
Even the good can be a curse
Makes it hard to know which road to go down
Knowing too much can get you hurt

Is it better? Is it worse?
Are we sitting in reverse?
It's just like we're going backwards
I know where I want this to go
Driving fast but let's go slow
What I don't wanna do is crash, no

Just know that you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back, back, back, back, back to the start

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

Now every day ain't gon' be no picnic
Love ain't a walk in the park
All you can do is make the best of it now
Can't be afraid of the dark

Just know that you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back, back, back, back, back to the start

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

I don't know where we're heading I'm willing and ready to go
We've been driving so fast we just need to slow down and just roll

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

2010-02-02T17:18:00.000+08:00

i wanted to update my blog on monday.
bt see lahh. now sat oready. bkn mls.
nk update jekk, tersidetrack. last2 terluper nk update.
ni cafe world nyer psl uh!! grr...
currently im watching raja lawak @ youtube. sumpah aku leh jadik giler.
lagi2 johan & zizan! hahah.
okay stop!
hahahah. this week is sooooooooo bowing! sal saket.
then tkleh gy aner2.
oh yahh, im not longer jobless (:
started werking yesterday. yess!! part time jekk while waiting for sch.
bt the whole of next wk have to werk everyday cause CNY mahh!
extend till 1030 lakk tuu. wat to do.
werking long hrs means more $$ leh shopping!!
heheheh. bler lahh nk 18feb. cpat lahh. nk schhh!!!
overall im a happy girl now.
........................................
bt deep down, i still mish him.
teach me to stop caring, when I think of what we were
teach me to stop crying, when I see you there with her
show me how to live again, when you're not here with me
show me how to fight the fact, that we're not meant to be
tell me that i'll be alright, and my life will be okay
without you right here by my side, to hold my hand each day
let these teardrops wash away, don't let this heartbreak last...
let me let go like you did, for you've forgotten me so fast

2010-01-31T23:44:00.000+08:00

Im back i guess..
I knw everything happen for a reason. & now i knw why it happened.
I finally got her back (:
God, pls let her stay for good now.

2010-01-30T23:39:00.000+08:00

This lies become a part of me. For weeks, I've played this game
Acting like it doesn't hurt each time I hear his name.
Ignoring what's inside of me, pretending I've moved on.
As if the feelings I once had for him are somehow gone.
Spending each and every day with happiness and laughter.
Forgetting all our memories avoiding our photographs.
But last night when I saw his photos....for the first time since he left
My heart stopped for a moment...I couldn't catch my breath
When suddenly it hit me as the tears started to flow
That even after all this time...
I just can't let him go.

2010-01-24T23:36:00.000+08:00

i thought i could be strong enough to face this. WRONG!
im gonna break into tears anytime soon ):
Saying goodbye was harder than I could have imagined...
soey. im gonna be on HIATUS for now until idk when.

2010-01-18T13:52:00.000+08:00

its been like a wk of not updating (:
not because of mls.
but my comp broke down last wk. tuu yg kena antar g repair.
1 hari tkder comp leh mati hor! hahah.
bt thank god they didnt reboot my comp.
lau tk abes lahh gmbr2 ku hilang.
went out with sis & meera. i forget which day lahh.
actually the plan was to accompany sis to dover.
terbabas pat town! hahaha.
kiter jln2. shopping! biler tkder duit, ader jekk ngah sale.
bingit/geram dan mcm2 lagi!!!
had our lunch/dinner at Pizza Hut @ PS.
tell u. the standard was way2 off frm the other Pizza Hut outlets ):
dessert at Swensen. shared ice cream with meera.
last2 aku yg abes kn. grrr.
lagi aper eh nk update?? hmm.
ouhh yahh. dye-ed my hair & also cut my fringe.
sis cut it for me. sumpah i look like minah2 cina senget! hahaha.
&& last wk was soo not my week.
keep arguing with Sunny. raser mcm nk give up pn ader sehh.
bt thank god everything is alright now.
turning no 3 soon (:
okay lahh, tml i update lagi! hehe.

2010-01-10T16:30:00.000+08:00

im not in a stable condition right now. this moment.
im sick. having sore thoart. & sadly, no one care.
yes. not even Sunny. he dun bother abt me ):
idk where i did wrong to deserve this kind of treatment frm him.
i mish my old Sunny.
oh anyways went to meera's crib ydae. help her with the cukur rmbt majlis.
alhamdulilah, everything goes as planned.
sesungguhnyer aku pnat. no doubt. bt i did have fun.
especially ngn meera nyer adk sdare. rmbt kiter 3 samer style dok! haha.
wish we could spend more time. bt too bad, i have to go home ):
ling, laen kali dilah dtg blang aku okay? blh jumper dier.
tml i'll be having an interview at Jrg.
sumpahh aku nervous. its an office job.
i really home i get it (:
wish me luck ppl.

2010-01-06T15:08:00.000+08:00

hello mellow. long time nvr update.

its oready fri. actually i wanted to update my blog on tue. bt tergendala.

currently at meera cribs. helping her with tml stuffs.

actually she asked me to sleepover here. bt mum nvr allow. hahah.

terpakser lahh dtg sni pagi2 sok. hahha.

ni ngah layan haaziq. cute nk mampos ni bdk kecik. mcm nk cium2 jekk!!

mr boyfy is booking out in awhile. sadly i cant meet him ):

punyer lahh seksa nk suwoh si ayul ni uwt homework. ader jekk distraction.

okay lahh, nk sambong uwt keje. tea break dahh abes! hahah.

see you when i see you. taaaaa!

2010-01-02T11:56:00.000+08:00

i hope its not too later to wish you guys HAPPY NEW YEAR!
its already the 2nd day of 2010 (:
manage to catch the fireworks at Marina. && it was awesome.
8 mins of fireworks? couldnt ask for anything else.
celebrate the countdown with my happy pills.
lil bro, sis & bf & mr boyfy.
BOOMZ! hahaha.
1st we went to penin to look for lil bro sch bag.
just the 4 of us, without sis as she was still at werk.
kecoh sakk kuar ngn ni 3 bdak gemok. hahaah.
carik bag mcm carik harta karun g2. punyer lahh susah!
proceed to pick sis up & had our dinner.
settled down at marina sq.
sooo many ppl. naseb amat kiasu carik tmpat duduk!
hahahaha.
imish NORAMIRAH BTE KAMIS!! arghhh!
lmbt nyer kau nk alek. carik oleh2 aku eh? hahah.
i think i betta logout now. hahah!
actually i have more to type. bt no mood liao.
mr boyfy is currently mad at me ):

2009-12-29T20:15:00.000+08:00

i mish this galah ):

okay, im boooored!!
meera gonna depart to KL soon. OMG!!
Ling, asl tknk bwk aku??! ahahah.
hope you have a safe journey to and fro okay pendek?
im soooo gonna mish you. jgn luper oleh2 aku tau!
lau tk aku antar kau alek g KL.
hahahahahaah...
thurs pls come fast!! nk countdown. yeahh! 1st tyme beb.
going with sis, amat, lil bro && mayb that galah of mine.
bt where eh? me & sis wanna go khatib, nak ngok didicazli.
lil bro wanna see fireworks at marina bay. hmm.
pat tmpt laen tkder fireworks ker? heheheh.
imy lahh giler.
okayy lah, i wanna play cafe world (:
see yaa.

2009-12-27T16:58:00.000+08:00

im back.
went out for awhile just now.
go jemputan at khatib. mum asked me to tag along.
sungguh aku pnat kena jln ngn heels.
ishk2. alah, skali skala mahh! hahaha.
niwaes finally meetup with my BFFs including mr boyfy!
happy nyer. dpt jumper meera, dpt jumper nasri!!!!
although just for awhile. tkper. janji lpas rindu pat si nasri.
hahah!
soo kiter lpak2. gy library.
memekak jekk budak2 ni. lagi2 meera. 24jam tawer.
oh yahh. terserempak ngn arinah.
&& rinah ingat kau dah promise nk blanjer aku kn3? hehe
currently bored. msn-ing with mr boyfy & meera.
mr boyfy jap lagi dahh nk book in!! GRRR..
make sure u mish me tau.
LING!! BWK LAH DAKU PERGI KL!! hehehe.

2009-12-26T10:41:00.000+08:00

morning everyone. idk why i woke up soo early today.
these past few days i've been having nightmares.
hahaha. evil ones.
with zombies, lipan & stuffs. yucks!
disgusting sehh!!! tktau sehh naper leh mimpi sal tuu bender. haish.
&& there's this 3 fuckers who keep calling me.
idk who they are. cause their number are not saved in my hp.
biler text, tktau reply. mintak kena jotus aku raser.
niwaes to those fuckers, keep on calling aites.
i dun have incoming, soo i wunt pick up! hurhurhurhur.
oh yahh. meeting that pendek later.
she coming over to pass sumthing. hahah! kad jemputan kot. heheh.
i wanna go JP!!! JOM ling!!

2009-12-25T14:38:00.000+08:00

i mish this pendek over here. hahah! 1 minggu beb tk jumper. tkper2.
endure!
but must mit her b4 she go KL.
A MUST OKAY LING!!
i oso mish mr boyfy. haiyoohh. bler mau jumper??!!
currently super duper bored. chatting with mr boyfy.
dier aru ang0n. ishk2.
dah kul 2 aru nk angon. pastuu tk mandi trus on9. perangai!
2009 is coming to an end real fast! haiyo0h!
resolution for 2010? better lau tkder.
my resolution for 2009 ader yg blm accomplish (SP?)
i really want to celebrate my countdown this yr.
bt idk whether dad will allow me. hmmm...
basically right now im looking for a job. yeahh!!
been sending resume & stuffs.
im not gonna continue sch. cause i lost the interest.
i just wanna werk & save money & take up makeup course. yesh!
hahahah. like my dad say
lau dier kaya, siang2 dier dah antar aku g blajar makeup. haha!
how i wish.
im super hungry. mum's cooking sumthing delicious i think.
bau dier menusuk beb!
basically im just typing nonsense. hahah!
okay bye!